So beautiful this thread, such an opening.
I will post some musings here, perhaps it covers some pieces of the unresolved pain and the confusion of the conflicts we still feel. The inner and the outer that don’t match what we “think” we are looking for or know.
My real journey and the hardest challenges started when the dualities imploded within me, some would call this alchemy, I think I would too. The implosion and resulting pain was captured in a poem (below). No details, no longer important – just my variation on a theme.
What I offer here are some lessons learned along with the joy of love that seems to flow so ceaselessly. It still hurts, almost daily, not for the person nor the circumstances, the pain is the longing that seems to keep moving us inexorably toward home. And somehow we can’t get there until we let go of everything, become nothingness and at the same time are so full that the body-soul aches with the out flow. Well, that is me most days now.
This state of nothingness isn’t to be mistaken for forgetting, it is the remembering and gathering in yourself the learning, the experiences forged into a kernel called wisdom. Within the inner fire the experiences get honed down, refined, distilled and the chaff burned off. This crucible is our inner most chamber, the innocent child waits there, always pure, waiting for us to remember.
We usually run away or find something else to occupy ourselves in order to not go through this space, this door that won’t budge until we do.
Admittedly to self long ago, I think we actually know what we are avoiding and what we seek in another. We mostly choose to avoid it until life delivers us someone or something to bring it out of us again. We are not only looking for love, we are love, a distinction that once grasped takes us out of this world and in essence nothing that we currently believe, hold on to, desire, or demand can be taken there. The fire grows brighter still.
What miracle has led me to be able to contain within me both sides, all sides, no sides? I can’t answer that, it is just so and even as my fingers strike the keyboard I know that by writing these words that will be challenged too.
Taking a tangent now.
Allowing that the what and how of Earth Empaths coming into being isn’t known to many of you I will add a bit about us here. We are three plus years strong, battle tested and honed to steel, and yes, still works in progress. What stood us in good stead, what has never failed is that we decided to trust, yes, it is a choice… we made for ourselves a sacred field of trust. We knew honor and to that stayed true, there is a natural law in honor and truth, the first key was no judgment, simple acceptance that each of us knew for our self which way to go.
We have no rules, no ruler, no guide, no schedule, no agreements, no contracts and what emerged from within the field itself was how we grew, how we knew wisdom and the silent voice that guides us with a sureness of self. We plunged into the sacred waters and drew up from there. What flourished was love and joy mixed with a great many tears and much laughter.
To those who Know the passage we made allow a moment to honor yourselves, beautiful beings all and to all of you too. This is Earth Empaths, it is the field itself, it is free and fun and full of joy and it offers great potential, not because of one person because of all of us. Tears and laughter mix, just as fire and water do.
Community means to commune, we can move into communion, it is happening more and more frequently every day. And have fun, be silly and stupid and irreverent, don’t make offense and don’t take offense. At the fundamental level it is simple.
This space is like no other that we know, so happy to have such good company join us.
Oh and me, I love beauty and truth and freedom. I like flourishes and laughter and tears. Challenges suit my nature, I don’t complain and I don’t blame. I love my friends and if someone harms them I am like a tiger let loose. I won’t stand down, I am stubborn in the face of adversity and I am not afraid to stand alone. Some things people do piss me off and I am not afraid to say so. I see in the dark and trust what I see.
That is me here, the rest of me is elsewhere making way for what comes next.
The Essence of the Rose
Holding the light in the dark is eternal
Holding the mirror for some one else's darkness, you become their darkness
Holding your Self, the mirror and the Other inside your heart is to act with courage
Allowing the mirror to shatter inside is a crucible of white pain
Standing in the flame is unbearable
The return
Peace
Love
Truth
Freedom
Beauty
