Thoughts, thoughts, too many thoughts...

[Spiritwind]

Way too many thoughts lately! So, I’m having some weird worsening health issues, for which I will be seeing a naturopathic doctor soon. I’ve been trying some unorthodox ways of trying to stimulate a toxin purge, as well as giving up a long time crutch which I will not go into here. Bottom line, is although symptoms are showing some tenacity, it’s also seemed to trigger a whole new level of understanding, and my dreams have been wild, like off the charts. And when I wake up, I have musings about the nature of our reality in a way I never have before, at least not in this life.

Even though I remember many snippets of probably over a dozen past life memories, or possibly even ancestral memories, mostly traumatic, it feels like something is wanting to surface. I plan to go and see a past life regression therapist soon, to see what comes up. Part of what I’m musing about has to do with AI, so called artificial intelligence. To me, consciousness IS intelligence, like how can it really be just “artificial”. And how is reality created? I get the feeling that we are not that far from it ourselves, this “artificial intelligence”, and have a component of our consciousness that is NOT just physical, as in a product of our brain activity.

I see a lot of commentary, and even fear, being expressed about the future development of this AI that is already fairly entrenched in our current digital lives. For instance, on Twitter, now X, unlike Facebook, everyone can interact with everyone else, pretty much, in real time, regardless of distance. It’s a cyber community of sorts. If you took our physical bodies out of the equation, what would that be? And how do we know that something akin to AI didn’t create this illusion of being real, being in a body, and having a terrain in which to experience ourselves this way?

I also see people on both sides of the fence, from what is happening, what’s coming on the larger screen of life, believe it is either very bad, or potentially really good. There’s also folks who either believe there is no god, and nothing happens after we die, it’s just the end, to believing we are gods with amnesia. Then there is the middle ground, usually religious, that does believe in God and an afterlife. For me, it’s obvious that we do have an incredible ability to create and in many ways shape our experience here. I used to imagine a whole scenario when I was younger, in great detail, an imaginary life if you will. The weird thing is, as I grew older, many of those elements came to manifest in my life, often without me doing anything conscious to make them happen. Does that mean I AM god? I don’t think so, but I do think that we all are sort of sparks of that divine intelligence that have individuated in consciousness from source. And we continue to exist, with or without a physical body.

I have read, and am re-reading this book by Dr. Shakuntala Modi called Remarkable Healings - A Psychiatrist Discovers Unsuspected Roots of Mental and Physical Illness. And remarkable it is! I won’t be reading it just before I fall asleep anymore though, lol. With my background in so many things, from astrology, Reiki, Kabbalah and path-working, to researching the occult underpinnings of what is happening in this reality, to my many anomalous personal experiences, I am quite convinced that I don’t know jack, lol. No, seriously, there is something very very strange going on here, in this reality, and I’m fairly convinced it’s a long ways from what most of us have been taught and think. All food for thought, of which I already have too many of…..more later.

[Spiritwind]

I haven’t written anything in a long time and not even sure I can manage it now. Everyday when I get up and peruse the news my mind is blown by just how much we’re not in Kansas anymore, and I’m not even sure where we are. Probably the thing that my attention is most focused on is my observations about people’s beliefs. Several days a week I try to clear my own energy field of thought forms, ungrounded emotional energies, and beliefs, assumptions, expectations, preconceived ideas, subconscious programming, and more. For myself I concede that I don’t know the “full” agenda, and how things are going to turn out. I’m not even absolutely sure who the “good guys” or the “bad guys” are. In a strange way, I am highly entertained, but it does leave me with a very rug pulled out from under me feeling. What does get me is how most are polarized to one side or the other, the right or the left, who is good and who is bad, and what is true, what isn’t, and how it’s “going to go”. There are obviously many agendas at play. And, of course, people are still dying left and right from the onslaught of dastardly deeds done to reduce the population, and make the rest of us too sick to even think clearly.

Me and my husband, who just turned 80, are still out here on our little off grid farm living a life that is getting more challenging in some ways that ever. The thing about aging is that you have to keep your mind sharp so you can figure out how to do things smarter as neither one of us have as much energy to expend as we had when we started this adventure. Plus, neither one of us can just go “get a job” to help make ends meet due to a variety of health related issues. Our fixed income is getting stretched pretty thin. I also can’t really do muggle land very well anymore anyway. Fortunately, I met the most awesome bunch of people when we started our little market after the convid era madness tried to lock us down. Even though it’s somewhat changed forms, we are all still trying to stay loosely connected, and it helps immensely with my ability to stay the course. It’s so nice to be around people who are fairly aware and are likewise living their best life despite whatever is happening “out there”. My connections with all these people has helped when searching for solutions to how to keep going, regardless of what challenges present. As a whole we keenly feel that putting energy into staying connected as we go about our daily lives is a good thing, and may even end up being essential to survival.

Plus, it’s gives me opportunities to source high quality foods and various herbal supplements (we have some outstanding herbalists among us!) and share other healing and helpful information to stay as healthy as possible during these unprecedented times. Staying away from mainstream medicine seems to be a common theme these days to stay alive. It is strange to contemplate just how much everything has become inverted. That could be a whole topic in itself. And as far as what is happening “out there”, it is about as chaotic and bizarre as it can get, and yet I know it’s probably only going to amp up even more as we head into the clash of ages. For those of us who have been tracking what the big plans are, as they don’t hide it at all anymore, we all sense the showdown coming between humanity and our would be controllers. UN agenda 2030 is a mere 4 years away, where if they have their way the world’s population will be drastically reduced, we’ll all be living in their little 15 minute smart cities, eating ze bugs and owning nothing. Somewhere in there, they know about something that caused them to build all those underground bunkers, so that needs to be factored in as well.

It helps that I see through the eyes of someone who long ago recognized that we, human beings, are not what we think we are, and reality isn’t even what we think it is. I try to spend as much time as I can in observation mode, rather than trying to figure it all out and come up with any hard, fast answers. Since I can’t really know for certain, it’s best not to put too much energy into a belief system that may or may not be wrong. I am grateful that I know I don’t know, lol, and continue to work on getting comfortable with that. Plus, it helps keep anxiety and fear about the future to a minimum. “They” (our would be controllers), know very well that a population that is in a constant state of uncertainty and fear is so much easier to steer and control. The one thing I am about as certain of as anyone can be, is that there is a vast intelligence that is here with us, and it is good. It seems there is also an intelligence that is very predatory, deceitful, arrogant, malevolent, and thinks it is in control, but I’m not ruling out that there may be something even it fears that is pushing in on us at the same time. I try to pay close attention to which one I am energetically feeding.

I will end with just wishing all you bright lights out there to keep your lights on and keep shining. And try to enjoy the show….

[Spiritwind]

I’ve been having discussions with a good friend of mine. Much of it centers around what is happening to our current reality structure, how we got here, what happens when you leave your physical body for good in this incarnation, and generally searching for truth. Or, at least pushing back the curtain more and more on what probably isn’t true, which is most everything we’ve been taught to believe.

I often ponder on the rather large differences in people here now, what motivates them, what occupies their minds. For me, the burning question has always been “why am I here”, and now that I am, how do I live with meaning and purpose here. Pretty difficult to answer these questions because what I come up with is completely at odds with the prevailing interests of my fellow man. I have always been aware of the non physical realms of spirit, and have had experiences since childhood that have clued me into the fact that all is not as it seems, that there is much more going on here.

Now with the massive interest in technology and what that brings to the table, especially in regards to the internet of things and the looming impact of AI on our lives, I question the narrative we’ve been force fed since birth even more. When I find myself scrolling on various social media platforms I find it more and more difficult to know what is real. That’s probably why I am so glad I live out in the sticks taking care of animals and growing food and medicine. At least that’s tangible and grounding for me. I have never really been able to make the pursuit of wealth and money my god. More and more I see how that is what keeps humanity ever on the hamster wheel, and from what I can see does not bring happiness or a lasting sense of fulfillment. And you can’t take it with you.

In reality, in my discussions with my friend, we both question if we are indeed trapped here in these avatar bodies, with our true selves much like in the movie The Matrix, plugged in and used like batteries to keep the simulation going. When I take a closer look at our predicament, I see how they’ve trapped us on both ends of the spectrum. People spend their lives mostly chasing after secular pursuits that bring only fleeting moments of satisfaction. I know people whose main dopamine hits come from food and drink, gaming and gambling, buying new stuff they often don’t need. I see many young people strung out on literally getting tattoos, piercings, fake eyelashes and fingernails, the latest fashions in clothes, cars, and other stuff. But they are the most lost of any generation I’ve seen. Most suffer from low self esteem, depression, mental health issues, and lack of meaning in their lives. And they hide this reality even from themselves.

On the other side of the coin is religion. So many have been captured by belief systems and don’t even know it. Not that yearning after spiritual concepts is bad in any way, but like most things it has been weaponized to capture and control us. I believe the being that gets worshipped in this realm plays both sides against each other. As in, one side doesn’t even believe there is anything outside of their physical existence, and the other side believes whatever their particular religion teaches them, still without question. I feel that there are many good people on both sides of that divide, and hopefully some are starting to wake up. Personally I question everything. The only thing that doesn’t like to be questioned is the lie.

I also find it interesting to think about Charlie Kirk and what got stirred up in the collective even more by what appeared to happen to him than before this event took place. The truth is, we will probably never know what really happened, but I can say with relative certainty that it is currently undergoing the usual spin. I do believe he was genuine and knew that getting back to our roots in seeking after a more spiritual existence here would benefit us. But, I feel much like whoever Jesus really was, it’s all being inverted to benefit our would be controllers. That’s just what they do.

The last thing I will comment on is our growing addiction to our phones and ability to look at whatever topics of interest grabs our fancy. Yes, it’s nice to be able to look things up and get answers rather quickly. But it’s become much more than that. It has an almost hypnotic effect on people that can be easily seen. Even I sometimes struggle to resist the urge to obtain that quick dopamine hit that comes from surveying the latest news, scrolling endlessly instead actually doing something helpful and meaningful, and which always leaves me with more questions than answers and a rather skewed perception of how things “really” are. I keep trying to come to the place where I can accept that much of it is, once again, designed to capture us in something that is actually false, and is not conducive to creating a more satisfying and meaningful life. It can actually be rather draining. Which, of course, is also what “they” want. For some reason, other than killing many of us off, making the rest sick and constantly struggling with health issues, they want us distracted so we can’t see what is really going on. Lately, I’ve taken up trying to learn simple songs on the keyboard whenever I’m sitting around in the evening (rather than endlessly scrolling). I’m not that musically inclined, but hey, might as well start somewhere, and it’s fun. Creating truly joyful moments is where it’s at for me lately. And I guess I’m done blabbing on for now. Kudos to anyone who manages to stay with my rambling all the way to the end. Yes, I do have too many thoughts!