I listened to a free hour workshop which happens every first Wednesday from Sonia Barrett. She calls them Reality Wednesday.
Any one can register for them.http://www.therealsoniabarrett.com/events/free-teleconference
This one was really pertinent to me. She initailly brought up that we each create the rules about, actually Laws about our reality. One she initially addressed is the constraint we place on our flow as income or the means we have....a BIG one. Two others she mentioned are relationships and body. She also included mind but the mind is involved in everything.
To the extent I know I am "god" in my reality, I know I create the rules in my reality. I have been contemplating how I really don't KNOW because I do the very thing she mentioned...give some external reason why I have what I have in my "budget" limitations. She mentioned a couple of other salient points
Embracing that "I am" the law giver of my reality need not create blame and shame as what I create makes sense at any time. The thing is to refresh the laws.
She emphasized how little time we spend contemplating "just what are the laws I hold for myself?" She talked about the focus" out there' that distracts from inner research.
She talked in terms of layers where we can have various level of authority placed in "other" law givers based on how fixed some laws have become. Most started so long long ago in our experience and we have particular blind spots.
I am putting together for myself the connection between this fact that yes, I do create my own rulers. I have my own fence. I have my compartments of whole sets that buttress each other.
I became so excited by this mantra tonight... "I am the law giver for my own life" and I wanted to put some music on. That means my computer. My router was DOWN. I had no connection. I called a phone tech and we tried to reset the router. It seemed to not be possible...meaning new router according to the tech Chad....
I accepted that I created the no internet. I laughed a lot. I have been feeling my internet distractions and feel a bit at a loss as to how to motivate me to get off when on hehe. My past days included a binge of "Altered Carbon" which despite my interest, sank my spirits. Then JUST while I am listening on the phone to "I create and that's the way it is", I turned the router off.
One last try to reset the factory settings seemed to fail. However while contemplating the creation of internet distractions, I went one last time to push buttons on the router. Then I realized I never turned the router on again after resetting. The internet connection now works for me again. I needed to reset a pass key and called Chad back because it was a bit difficult. Now its back and secure.
OK so here I am on the internet but I am here to help myself create new laws via recording two plans I thought to use while off the internet earlier.
1. Embrace how falling in love with myself as my law giver is being awed by my ability to write and rewrite all codes and rules. The love for ME is a powerful state. I reroute the submissions to the unconscious programming by CONSCIOUSLY being in a honey moon where I give MYSELF what is loving feeling . It is a lover who will turn off the broadcast when I feel like I am sucked in and cannot disengage.
2. Spend time on discovery of the laws I have on my books. One I can observe is that my rules of money, relationships and my even body are all entangled. There is a definite inner pattern of disappointment and feeling constricted under EVERYTHING and what is THAT about? I also plan to give these recognized ones over writes as they come around rather than ignore this opportunity by amnesia.
3. Apply what I know about how I still am embracing a trap of feeling victim as a main LAW. It surfaces in feeling overwhelmed and tired and wishing to escape... escape where? How can I escape my self haha. That is why I am making a solid committment that in the next days, I will make my main contemplation.. I am the rule maker and the rule breaker. I am the book of rules and a big eraser. I am the alchemist of my own lab.
I am reminded of Tobia Lars' process of energy alchemy that I am able to use about my body but so far have not extended well to all areas like money and relationships.
1. I Am the Energy Sufficient unto My Self.
'Mommy' and 'Daddy' (God- Source) are directly feeding me w/ the unlimited energy of the Uni - Verse.
2.At the Center of each of my Chakras is a zero point/ singularity that literally infuses, feeds me the unlimited energy of the Source Field, God, The UniVerse. FACT.
1. I Am the 'Germinator' , as things begin I Am the Inceptor and can 'order it' the way I want.
2. AnFang - to capture, to Begin, to Start....to capture as well....capture the moment.
3. YOU have choice when starting new Avenues of doing, Business, work or relationships.
'Aha, I can see and sow seeds of how I would like this to be.'
Feel the space of being the 'decider'....just breathe into it...if there's some uncomfortableness w/ it just 'be' with that..breathe through it...allow it.
You are asking for more 'mastery', i.e. decider, creator, master of your own destiny....
this is part of it...
I am the energy sufficient unto myself.
Each of my energy centers is plugged directly into the Source Field.
I draw the energy to accomplish my freedom from my old programs of hierarchy (who has by rights and who is lacking) and where I wallow in relationships with people and money that look unequal.
My mud hole(y) is so I may choose to walk away
Not necessarily physical
I may energetically change the charge
My Egoic sense of needing acknowledgment from the outside,
a supply that demonstrates what I am needing from some outside means,
any outside reflection of need is amenable to alchemizing.
If I feel aversion in observing what I create it is not necessary to avoid or to pursue.
I can use the clue to look at the underlying program
I can get in touch with the energy of sadness, disappointment, even their counterpoints of happiness and satisfaction to see where I gave my power
My power is in relationship to myself and my higher SELF
Though I still need and still have programs and still have dissonance
Even though I am still feeling lonely as if I have to make a world where I can feel free, abundant, creative and equal because I am not yet feeling these in me
I can reclaim all the power