I’m just going to start writing and see what comes out. My mind is a very active mind, and for a very long time now I have been developing the part of me that supersedes the “busy” part of my mind, and goes on to consciously reflect and think about the part of me that can kind of operate on auto pilot. I have different levels of thinking I have observed, and not all are really beneficial, and these different levels also correlate with various states of my physical body, mood, and emotional state.
Optimally, I take the time each morning to simply clear my field of these what I guess you could call lower thought forms. They are thoughts, sometimes not even fully conscious until I consciously intend to go there and take stock, so it takes an act of will and intent. I tend to hold a lot of tension in my body, and as I check in I notice this and am practicing moving repeatedly back into a relaxed state. I also take some time to literally clear the static field we are all immersed in, so that my reception to the more expanded potential state of being becomes more accessible.
Let’s see if I can describe this in any meaningful way. My husband turns on the news some times when he comes home from work. The energy coming out of the tv and permeating the room is part of what I’m talking about. When I scroll through Facebook in the morning when I get up I often see a lot of posts that focus on all that is wrong with our world. And I do want to know about certain things, and I also understand many people post these in the hopes of waking others up, providing information that many may not otherwise even know exists (as do I sometimes). But much of it is couched in very tension producing terminology. In other words, it feels disempowering.
I know all about 5G, HAARP, CERN, the dangers of vaccines, the radiation from Fukushima pouring into our oceans, weather modification, the continuing divide over what is really happening to our climate. I know about how much we have been lied to and mislead about history, and I know the truth about what the control system is all about and what it has in mind for our future. I know about many of these agendas being rolled out under the guise of equality, fairness, non discrimination, sustainability and so on, and how our “goodness” is being abused and manipulated to our own demise. I can also see the deeper workings of an agenda that is so very divisive intentionally and with a long term goal of achieving a sort of total control over our lives while we actually help make it happen because of our lack of knowledge about how these would be controllers actually operate, and the dialectic and psychology they use against the populace.
But, that knowing is already there and has been for a long time, really ever since I was a kid. That “knowing”, obviously, has been much expanded on over time. But I’ve heard this from others besides myself. If you don’t balance this “knowing” with solution oriented actions and behaviors, and the preceding thought processes to get you there, then you are missing the boat, and the system has won. Because it leaves you in a subconscious state of fear, anxiety, guilt, even rage and depression, and is totally disempowering, which is exactly what “they” want.
I know what my husband and I worry about, and talk about on a regular basis. And I know what others who are much more financially secure worry about. It’s this “field” which I keep talking about. They feel the purposefully generated sense of instability about our collective future, be it war, climate change, or some other type of catastrophe. It’s being pumped out here lately at an astronomical rate. I see it in people’s faces, and especially their eyes. We are collectively suffering from not only post traumatic stress, but pre traumatic stress, as we are given something new to anticipate and be afraid of at every turn.
I know when I look at the past, what can be known about with any certainty, is that life on this planet for us humans, and radiating out to affect all life, has been precarious as far back as we go. The entire planet has went through dramatic changes, many times over. Thing is, this earth has an amazing capacity to recover. And life survives, and finds ways to even thrive, over and over again.
Now I want to contrast with a completely different type of concurrently running set of realizations. When I get up each morning and just sit in quiet self reflection, I feel just so much. Tears are often just below the surface. I didn’t know I was an empath for much of my life, but since I have become aware of “what is wrong with me”, LOL, it’s actually been very helpful to my overall experience of daily life here. The waves of human emotion that are radiating unconsciously around the planet at this time are at an all time high. For me to receive the signal I want to receive from what energetically operates on a completely different, beneficial, level (I call it source, the Big Kahuna, the part of myself that never left home in the first place and is always fully connected) I first have to spend time engaging in a release and clearing of the static field. This unconscious energetic field keeps me locked into tension and worrisome thought patterns (I find myself unconsciously hurrying all the time, even when I don’t need to, and it’s this underlying fearful trying to be ready for what is coming kinda feeling)
I hold tension in my body like a clenched fist. I realize, in part, that this from residual post traumatic stress from my childhood, and even into my adulthood, since I carried those same patterns with me until I began to be aware of them and began to change them. I had the fight or flight thing going on intensely, on autopilot, for much of my life. That is what a traumatic childhood can do to you, and there are many walking wounded running around.
Thing is, once I clear it, both within myself, and then the larger collective, I feel completely different. Then I go on to literally making the call, just like picking up the telephone (before cell phones!), and dialing my more expanded radiant self and also just direct source to source. I once again feel plugged in, energized, excited about life!
Ever since I was a kid I wondered about life, about why we were here, what was really going on, the meaning of it all. You know, totally typical childhood musings (actually I do think all children are much closer to that truth we all seek and have it programmed out of them, their conscious awareness anyway - they have to “dumb down” to fit in). I can actually remember just talking directly to the creator, AND receiving answers, even all the way back then.
And this is why I’ve thrown out religion altogether. We don’t need it. I certainly don’t. In fact, all it did was confuse me. I mean, I thought the reason you go to church was to “get to know” God. Well, I already do and don’t need any outside books, teachings, systems, or dogmatic proclamations on how to live and be acceptable. Those dispensing this so called wisdom probably mostly haven’t a clue. In other words, some have never felt truly in communion with any truly god like figure and have no idea what it is they are talking about.
Because, when I make the call, I ALWAYS, I realized, get an answer. I’m a little on the slow side, and a doubting Thomas to boot, but it’s undeniable. It’s a repeatable experience that isn’t even difficult to create. But, you have to pay attention, and you have to stop using your rational mind to figure it all out. In short, it’s an act of faith. It never lets me down though. I, myself, am my biggest reason I am not walking on water and raising the dead. No, seriously though. I think “they” knew what we are really capable of and definitely don’t want us to figure it out for ourselves. That would make us dangerous indeed.
And, I think we are coming into a wave of such amazing proportions, with such benevolent potential it would knock our socks off if we really knew. I also feel what is coming is UNSTOPPABLE. In other words, “they” will try to shut us down in whatever ways they can come up with. The way to do that are myriad and they’ve spent a long time perfecting their fuckery. They will lead some astray, but so many of us are on to them, or are becoming on to them, that they just don’t have a chance.
When I make the call, and I receive the answer, I ALWAYS feel empowered, clearer of mind, AND body, because what affects the one, always affects the other. It is the single most important thing I do. Okay, I think that’s the end of my epic rant.
I’m not myself today, maybe I’m you