Today seems like a good day to try and write something up here. I’m sitting here eating a piece of home made apple pie, looking out at the brilliant sunshine on a cold crisp morning, thinking about my day ahead.
The fire went out and I’m not starting another one yet because it burns up too dang fast and as soon as I get done here I’m heading outdoors to get something accomplished anyway. We put up a 6 foot by 12 foot chain link kennel last weekend. I want to use it for breeding in about 2-3 months and getting it ready now is a smart move. Kinda hard to do when there is several feet of snow on the ground, and I keep trying to make things go smoother and reduce the possibility of unplanned goat pregnancies. Then I put up some sheet metal roofing to cover the top of it too. Unfortunately, when I did that I stepped back off the ladder and fell backwards into a big hole that was dug when they perk tested the property. Jumped right up, and as usual, thought everything was just fine, only to realize a couple days later what I actually did to myself.
The whole health maintenance thing takes quite a lot of work, planning, and self discipline these days. I off and on didn’t take good care of myself when I was younger, especially during relationship breakups and when I first left home as a teen. I also saw my health deteriorate in the years before I had my upper teeth pulled due to severe gum disease. My teeth themselves were in really good shape and I just didn’t get it when they kept talking about deep pockets.
But besides all of that, many of us are suffering from vaccine damage (and don’t know it - all those heavy metals and other stuff didn’t exactly help us out in the long run). I had to get a lot of them to leave the country with my family to go to Honduras when I was 10. And now, today, many farmers spray their GMO grain crops with glyphosate to basically kill the plant to make for a better harvest (or at least so they’ve been sold). For all these reasons I now have trouble with my digestive system which started about 5 years ago. Never had a problem before then, but my research has revealed that it’s accumulative in nature. We kill off all the beneficial microbes in so many ways, from dryer sheets and that stupid hand sanitizer you see everywhere now (neither of which I would ever use), to deodorant, hair shampoos and conditioners, soaps, as well as household cleaners. GMO’s and glyphosate do a good job too, as our gut struggles to maintain a balance without the good bacteria needed to do the job. Chemtrails have been shown to have high amounts of aluminum. We are increasingly living in a chemical soup.
When I went to the local Holistic fair last weekend I met an amazing woman who has developed a line of skin products to help restore our natural gut bacteria. Even though her products are not ingested, our skin is one of the primary ways in which our body throws off toxins. And if all the natural microbes are gone (which many of us unwittingly help destroy through soaps, cleaners, lotions, and especially sunscreen) you may find your poor body just isn’t up to the job. I met another woman who was promoting a line of probiotic products designed for internal use too. I am sure her products probably work, but being the financially cautious person I’ve had to learn to be I will probably explore more on how to produce more of these types of things on my own. I plan to learn a lot more about fermentation. I like kimchi and used to make it, plus sauerkraut is good too. I used to do kombucha but after a few years of no one else in my group of nearby family and friends willing to even try it and having a ridiculous excess I ended up letting it go. Everyone thought I was doing some kind of weird science experiment, LOL. But maybe I’ll even try and get that going again too.
All of this takes more self discipline than I actually have, but I continue to push myself to overcome my own resistance to doing things differently and getting used to different habits. I’m writing about all of this because I know these type of health issues are becoming epidemic. For me, having intense fatigue, wanting to just go to sleep and say fuck it all, and moaning and groaning all the time because my body hurts just isn’t acceptable. Especially if there is something I can do about it. Brain fog isn’t enjoyable either. Throw in ten years of hot flashes and not feeling rested even after a nights sleep, and I realize I will find the strength, motivation, and inspiration I need. I have to much to do, and too much to take care of to just go with it.
Somehow, besides all that, I manage to get things done lately. The CBD oil really helps even if it can’t fix everything. And so I’ve been able to get some of the worst parts of the goats pens cleaned up. Thankfully (again!), my neighbor came and helped with the big pile that had accumulated in front of the feeder in the bigger pen where the Nigerians Dwarfs are, and little Miss Uma can’t jump out anymore! Woohoo! Probably three more days of not overworking myself and it will be done (except for the two bucks area - that might have to wait a bit).
I had to listen to three days of Firefly crying non stop because she was in heat. She is the only one who does that (except Cry Baby who is pregnant) when she comes in heat, and it’s annoying as hell. I can’t even let her out to milk her without holding on because she wants to run over to the bucks pen (quite some long ways away) and get them all excited. She will do this probably all winter about every three weeks, and I wasn’t planning on breeding her this year. I know I need to start winding down on the milking, but much like the goats I get into a routine and it’s hard to change sometimes. But, since it’s looking like it’s going to be a possibly harsh and long winter I do need to think about simplifying. We are already having to use the wood stove everyday, and I’m having to clear ice off all the water buckets too.
Since we may not get the water lines in before the ground freezes we plan on at least trying to get a 200 gallon propane tank in. That will make life a bit easier. And we did manage to get a good snow blower for this winter too, so that should help. A couple more batteries for the solar system are on the list. And, well, damn, the motor mount for the little car too. I’m hoping the transportation challenges will abate here anytime, anytime at all. I don’t mind being home, but this is getting ridiculous.
I do see some of the funniest things when I’m out there though, just little things. Like, we bought Ranger, our 4 year old Great Pyrenees, a stuffed squeaky toy the other day. He is big, and ferocious, and actually also like a little kid. He strutted around like he was something special (which he is!) and then went off to find a place to bury it. All quite endearing. Then just yesterday he went and dug it up and came running up with it in his mouth. And then Misha is just an overgrown fur ball. Besides changing her dog food, I also add a bit of diatomaceous earth to her food every once in a while and it always makes her more alert and active. She has had some health issues since early on, and I have no doubt she wouldn’t even be with us if I wasn’t doing what I am doing for her. Plus, they both love the cooler weather.
And I opened up the fence where the corn and sunflowers were and the goats have been loving that. They have completely mowed it down for me! I have already hauled up quite a bit of their composted poop piles from early this year to the garden areas. I find that when I do some of this in the fall I am much further ahead next spring. The whole key to gardening success out here is building up the soil. And it really shows when I see how well things grow in certain places. I’ll definitely continue to improve fencing around garden areas too. Ballerina is keeping me on my toes, big time!
We’ve already had to start worrying about water pipes and drains freezing up with the unseasonably cold temperatures, but we’re gaining on that too. Every year we realize what worked, what didn’t, and what we can do to make improvements. And that seems to be both on the farm, and for ourselves on a personal level at the same time. My mom used to say “youth is wasted on the young”. I don’t know if that is true, but I sure do wish I had figured a few things out a long time ago and not so late in the game.
And, with that, I guess I’ll get my snow pants on and get out there (LOL - can’t BELIEVE I’m already wearing them!).
Oh, yeah, and here is a link to her website (the woman I met at the Holistic fair): https://clearwatercultures.com/
I got her Healing Cream and it is positively divine!