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Re: Thoughts, thoughts, too many thoughts...

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I guess today is as good of day as any to start writing something. As is often the case, I’m not even sure what will come out. I do know I am feeling very unsettled about what appears to be happening in the world at large. Very unsettled indeed. So much so that I am starting to have trouble staying focused, on task with things I want to get done. My head just wants to keep spinning in multiple directions, as I see the beginnings of world wide madness descending upon us.

Am I exaggerating? Perhaps. Perhaps not. As always, time will tell. So, at this point, I’m going to straight up say it. I do feel on a deep intuitive level, that is not going to spit out a bunch of “evidence”, that this experience that we’re all having, that is affecting much of the planet, is absolutely by design. It’s not happening because of some weird mutation of a viral element transferred from bat to human, totally by chance, causing widespread illness and death.

Like, seriously, where is the opt out button, or exit door stage left? Where do I even find the words for what wants to express itself, before it truly is too late. I always thought I must of ended up on the wrong planet, the wrong reality setting, the wrong timeline, or something.

I will say the behavior of both the common people, and those orchestrating this from levels unseen to most, have me quite alarmed, and discouraged at the moment, as I see the great divide getting bigger by the day. This is not the way I want to live. In fact, I will go so far as to say I absolutely will not allow another outside force do whatever it wants to me. My life is my own, to keep or take. Read that again if you have to. And if you still think this is just about a simple virus and the self appointed (sorry, we probably haven’t had a reliable election in a long time) authority figures desire to “protect us” I don’t even know what to say. The writing IS on the wall, and it’s fairly plain to see, if you’ve looked at history at all. Only this time, the war against life here is undeclared, and even completely unseen or unrecognized by most. I realize many are too worried right now about their own day to day existence, as it has become very precarious. Those living at the margins of life have just grown exponentially, and I see no end in sight.

My heart weeps, and my head hurts, and the tears well up in my eyes as I think about all the many ways this could have went, and didn’t (at least not yet). In the end I will probably just keep on going in the direction I have been for some time now. I guess all my training at learning to be alone, work alone, and still stay motivated and learn to enjoy my own company is going to come in pretty handy. That is, until they come for me too.

We are close to being able to just stay home almost indefinitely with the exception of having to get feed and other supplies for the animals. But I do know farmers with smaller family owned operations are of a different breed of human, for the most part, and are greatly unappreciated. Fortunately I know quite a few of them. Best keep working on creating the means to have the resources, things people actually need to survive, to barter for what we need. And, I am glad I have been working on building a small network of like minded people who aren’t buying into the script playing out right now, and are equally concerned. Community, and who you know is going to become more and more important as this continues to unfold.

And, I may just get off social media entirely, and start leaving my phone at home (started doing that already!) here in the very near future. Reading and listening to the continuous shock and awe narrative being rolled out daily is doing nothing for my sense of well being. In fact, it’s fairly in the trash now.

The funny thing is (and I don’t mean ha ha funny) is that I want to be wrong. I have people accusing me of having a belief about whatever is happening, and that I just can’t see clearly. Like, I am just clinging to my need to be right. Sorry folks, that’s not it at all. I desperately want to be wrong. I will happily admit my error if this isn’t what it appears to me. It’s like standing on some railroad tracks and a freight train is coming right at me. Not really time to argue about it’s reality. No, it’s time to get the fuck out of the way, but there’s no where to go!!!

Many other things I’d rather have on my mind now, but I just needed to get this off my chest. I am so glad I have been working on expanding garden areas, building soil, making preparations to preserve adequately what we grow. And that is going to become a very big thing in the near future, just being able to have healthy food to eat. And I have a whole medicine cabinet growing right out our front door, and 40 plus years of knowing how to use them. So I am grateful for a number of things. (I know I’m kinda repetitive about the medicine cabinet, but, seriously, not a day goes by that I am NOT grateful for this!)

My main goals right now are just learning to move out of this place of chaos and uncertainty, to a place where I can make calm measured decisions on how to proceed from here on out. I need to learn not be so swayed by all the media hype that continuously demonstrates that the ultimate goal is to create a one world government that is definitely not going to be “by the people” or “for the people”, and that life as we’ve known it is never going to be the same. I realize things needed to change, but this certainly isn’t the way I would have went about it, if I actually was wanting it to improve conditions for all life here. In fact, I predict far more deaths from this rollout of police state activity, and the coming revolution. I’m fairly certain it is on the way, judging from the responses I see just in my everyday life. And it leaves me very unsettled indeed.

I just wish people could see the Hegelian dialectic, and the whole create a problem, to get a reaction, to get people to then scream for the solution they previously wouldn’t accept. I see it playing out over and over again. And I want to go back to just enjoying my life, what we are creating here, without this (insert whatever swear word seems appropriate) show trying to be the only channel we get to listen to. Enough already!

So, I’m going to go out and plant my corn, and other veggies, walk my goats, and play with the kids. The sun is shining, the birds are chirping, and hopefully the bees are pollinating our apple trees. I still love life, just not the current reality channel they are blasting on all media platforms. For now, I can still go out and breath deeply, thank the sun for shining, and the waters for their life giving properties, and the little microbes that help keep me healthy. I can put my hands in the composted soil and appreciate all the worms it has spawned. Yes, dirt is good!

Oh, and just one last thing. Do you hear anyone, anyone at all, talking about how this is affecting us as spiritual beings? Because we are. Spiritual beings. And, there is a spiritual component to all of this that is pretty much not being looked at, at all. A good thing to ponder on.
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Re: Thoughts, thoughts, too many thoughts...

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As I try to shake myself out of a very sleepy place, in both body and mind, I think I will try to write my way out of the strange place I find myself in. Lately, it’s been almost everyday I wake feeling this way. Just being here, in this reality, makes me feel very tired.

Thankfully, I love where I live. The energy of nature is strong out here, and I draw much strength from every aspect of it. I remind myself to breath deep, and as I do so, I think about how every cell of my body is made up of the substance imbued with the power of nature, as well as the air I breathe. The trees stand in quiet repose, and they remind me of sentinels, or guardians of the underworld, where the actual forces of nature, as they were forced to recede from the surface due to human activities, reside.

These forces are still here, and accessible, yet remain hidden to most. For mankind has forgotten about the strength they, too, used to derive from her. As the great forests were cut down, and the earth has been ravaged by the hand of greedy men, her only recourse has been to withdraw her juiciness, to a realm where only the respectful can reach and interact with. But she is really never far away.

I see her daily, in almost everything I do, and she speaks to me. She speaks to my soul in a way nothing else can. I love her. I love her with all my heart, for my heart is from her, part of her, the very blood that pumps through my veins comes from her.

It is painful to see the ways in which my fellowman has been hypnotized by the black magicians who worship a foreign god. The way they have been taught to live by them, and the way their personal sense of self has been slowly stripped away from them, in such a way they do not even see what I see. For if they did see, they would immediately spring to action, to throw off this growing yoke of oppression that threatens to strangle what little remaining light, and life force, we have left right out of us.

For this I know in my heart, more than anything. Once that cord has been severed, regaining it will be difficult indeed. These dark magicians are commanded by the one who remains shrouded from view. But one can sense it’s envy, it’s hatred for life here. One doesn’t have to look far to see the results of its ever flowing rage, vengeance, and spite. It has stolen our youth and our innate power given to us by divine forces, and uses that power to help create the very circumstances that lead to our demise.

This is why they have to get us out of the countryside, and into the city. They will burn us out, flood us out, or use a ruse as old as time itself. Yes, you must ever hide in your high rise apartment, giving your youth to a greedy god, only to then give even more. For it wants it ALL! And now, it claims you must muzzle yourself, and refrain from acts of human affection, caring, all in the name of trying to protect us from ourselves. Who will protect us from it?

So, I already have my tree picked out. The one who will receive my very force of life once it’s my time to leave the physical. I bequeath willingly my very soul to her. It belongs to no one else. And I will dance the dance of freedom, until my legs works no more, and I will sing the song of freedom, until my voice works no more. And I will pray, I will pray for all life here, that those with the ability to awaken their will to act will do so. It doesn’t take joining a protest, holding signs and marching through our city streets. It simply takes an act of will to stand up to what you know is wrong, and a willingness to stand up, open your mouth, and say what you know is right.

And I don’t mean going around trying to point out everyone’s error. I mean standing tall in your convictions, when aligned with the heart and soul, and not back down no matter what oppressive force is coming at you. Stand up for your children, for your families, for your communities, for your elderly and handicapped (which, incidentally is tied to our lost divine masculine). Stand up for the water and the trees. Stand up for life itself. And going around with a muzzle on your face, for possibly who knows how long? Really, this scare for your life they have unleashed upon your mental faculties could last indefinitely. They are herding you into a pen that they have no intention of letting you out of.

You know how I get my goats to go into their pens after I’ve let them out for awhile? I give them their favorite treat, grain. But we supposedly have higher faculties. Time we started using them more. I talk to people every day, and every single person I know is suffering more from this shock, awe, and trauma being inflicted on mankind, far more than the virus itself ever could have. In fact, although there may be a biological component to this, the verdict is still out that virus’s are even what we think they are. They could even be our friends. But they are trying to teach us that nature is scary. Man is scary. To me, their dark magicians are scary. But the earth so far has done nothing but love me unconditionally just as I am, just as a mother would do. I put my faith in her, and in myself. And no outside authority, no matter what they use to convince me otherwise, has the right to take that away.
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Re: Thoughts, thoughts, too many thoughts...

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I don’t know if I’ll have time to write much, but have a lot on my mind. I have been asked to milk a goat friends two goats this morning so she could get away, plus I have my two grandsons over. Haven’t had the two of them together for quite some time, since last year. Plus it’s my daughters birthday.

But, just wanted to jot down a few thoughts. I woke in the early morning hours, and then fell back asleep, only to have a most horrible nightmare. Haven’t had a nightmare (at night anyway) where I’ve started moaning in my sleep and couldn’t wake up since around 10 years ago. It felt very ominous, and fortunately as I was calling out for my husband in my sleep, he heard me moaning and woke me up by shaking me. It was so intense I began to weep uncontrollably. Even now it brings tears to my eyes.

I want to believe that what my senses tell me isn’t true. I want it so bad! I believe other than my little haven here on the internet, I’m going to start pulling away even more from the outer world. I realize I can’t save anyone. If they aren’t awake now, then by the time they are it’s going to be too late. What is coming is not good, and most cannot even begin to wrap their mind around it. That is because most people have not had, or have not recognized, true evil when they see it, and feel it. I have.

I do not actually blame the many who harbor it, for it’s been a takeover by stealth, as, as I said, by a force beyond most people’s comprehension. But then, there has been much going on here that most have been blissfully unaware of, at our peril I might add. Some of it is coming to light, but not fast enough, and there has been ample distraction. Of course, it’s all been planned way in advance too, down to the last detail.

My struggle now, is to live with what I know in my heart is coming, and how to keep my senses about me. It’s not as easy as I would like, in fact, it’s not easy at all. I have family, grandkids, children, loved ones etc. And their minds are mostly closed, entrained by all the new toys meant to trap us in this false narrative, that has been slowly, methodically, dripped out over at least the last 100 years. War is never about what we think it is, and this war is not like any before in known history. Make no mistake about it, we ARE at war. And there will be severe losses. At least, at this point, it appears to me many will not make it through still in their current physical form. It’s a ritual of epic proportions, and they ARE on a time schedule. There is no turning back now.

So for the time being, I feel the need to just keep that smart phone off, use the internet sparingly, watch TV not at all, and just stay as close in heart and mind to what is real as I can. I will walk softly upon this earth, and breath deeply to fill my senses with all the sounds, smells, and sensations of just simply living, giving and taking only what I need from that which has always been there for me. I will not worship false gods, nor will I give them my allegiance. My loyalties remain always and forever elsewhere. And she knows....
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I know I can ramble on. I guess you would call that loquacious. I used to get put in the hallway in public elementary school all the time, for talking too much. And books were my only friends, other than a healthy imagination, as a kid, and I continue to value learning more about this ever changing reality we are collectively experiencing. Of course, we also each have our own unique experiences, reality bubble, that we occupy.

It’s funny, because I know most of us are fairly focused on what’s in front of us, what we see. As we process incoming information, we choose what we deem as necessary actions to take, all as part of our analysis of the future and what we expect of ourselves, and what we believe others expect of us. We consciously, and even more, unconsciously, are doing this, often on auto pilot, all the time. And this is also on an individual, and simultaneously collective level. In fact, there are those who occupy themselves almost solely with thoughts about how to “play the game”, how to outwit their opponents, and how to “win the game”. Of course, the game is high stakes, and it involves the fate of much of the planet, but what do they have to lose?

You see, I have come to a place where, strangely enough, I tend to think we have something like a vampire empire of sorts, with some infighting amongst their large extended families, and we are mostly just the pawns they use to out-maneuver, and outwit their opponent, and win the game. Of course, the winner takes all, and that includes us.

They basically don’t die, they just keep reincarnating in certain families and are able to pass down the memories intact going all the way back to the time they took over. They keep this information very secret. And they hibernate, possibly sometimes for centuries, before they awaken at some preordained, predestined time, set according to astrological principles still in common use today. Much like mosquitos, only much bigger and nastier, they prey upon all mankind, especially exploiting their blind spots, purposefully operating behind the scenes to constantly keep them too distracted, too busy, to even have real time for self reflection, and spiritual pursuits. They want us blissfully unaware that they even exist, up until the time they wake up in mass, and wreak havoc as they ravage and tear asunder all that is good. For they revile compassion, forgiveness, empathy, and the nurturing of the young. They consume innocence, as if it were their favorite desert.

Not a pretty bunch, are they? And you think this is just a fairy tale, a tall story, the ravings of a madwoman, who doesn’t know what she is talking about.

Of course, all the wars there ever were, have always been about sacrifice. Great sacrifice. Have you ever just sat with yourself, and wondered, why? I mean seriously, why do wars really happen? Is it even possible that something that literally feeds on life force energy, wakes from time to time, and requires its minions who remain to serve as agents of malicious intent, to round up a meal? What really drives mankind to kill one another? Wantonly, for no war has ever been fought that was truly righteous in retrospect. Lies always abound, as the truth becomes deeply hidden to hide what really happens, in every war.

My husband knows. He has seen the depths of evil, and recognizes it still. So do I. As much as I continue to see lights coming on, in the hearts and souls of those who cannot turn off that special something that sets us apart from that which is truly of mal intent, the dark side is growing in intensity. It is not a time for the faint of heart either. Many will tremble in their shoes, when they realize just who’s been in the room with them, while the light has been off.

But something good is coming too. I can feel it. I can feel it in my bones. What will it look like, when it arrives in full force? I honestly don’t know. I am teaching myself daily, that for something new to truly be born, we have to accept that it won’t look like anything we’ve ever seen before. Is it possible. Not much I claim to believe in, without knowing for sure. But I do believe this.
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Re: Thoughts, thoughts, too many thoughts...

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Many thoughts are coming to me this morning, after some previous writing and self reflection. It has to do with the spiritual nature of what is happening, on an almost collective level, regardless of where you live. The near future as it unfolds, even though showing a predictable pattern, for those with eyes to see, is not going to be the same for everyone. But in some way, it is going to affect every single person on the planet.

I literally see an awakening, in those who are pure of heart, all across the globe (sorry flat earthers), that crosses all lines. It does not matter whether you believe in our governments, whether you believe, or don’t believe, in wearing a mask. But it does matter if you believe that humanity as a whole, has value. Is worth defending, even as flawed as it is. Believes in the ultimate power of love, regardless of what appears to “happening” out there, outside our personal reality bubbles.

For make no mistake about it. We are at war. We are at war with something so evil, many cannot look at it at all. Some just believe that what you focus on, you get more of, which IS true, but not the whole truth.

No, I’m not taking sides, for in truth I know that I am. And that includes what we would label the good and bad, the right, and the wrong. Problem is, there is sacred law that supersedes mans laws, and it does not dwell in duality. We must get beyond labels, and get straight to the heart of it. When push comes to shove, whose side are you really on? The big kahuna, that is liquid loving dancing, musical, creative, joyful, light, that many call by different names. That ineffable something, that animates ALL life, and it is BENEVOLENT!

It does not buggar children, and sacrifice it’s minions to a lying, deceitful, arrogant, vengeful, narcissistic god, that demands ultimate obedience extracted through fear, and is ultimately behind every great loss of life that has come about through the hands of humans engaging in the act of war. It demands great sacrifices, and we have been unwittingly sacrificing our youth, along with their innocence, to it for a very long time.

Thing is, it’s turned up the flame, slowly, almost imperceptibly, over how long a time I do not even know. Maybe it falls and rises in cycles. And seems to recede into the background, but continues to work behind the scenes, through exploiting the evil that resides in unawakened humans and the unconscious hidden recesses of their psyches. It preys on their weaknesses, and slowly, insidiously, takes over the minds and bodies of those with too little soul to fight back.

I have been building my inner temple for long before this lifetime, as have others in my ancestral line. The branches go off in many directions, but yet, with practice, I have realized they are all still living, in a sense, assessable even now, along with their many gifts, experiences, and knowledge.

Most of us come from very spiritual lineages with rich traditions that are actually under the false overlay, but in reality is the foundation that holds it up. They just keep tearing down and rebuilding, over and over again, while ever remaining aloof, in their little castles in their minds, still dreaming that they have some imagined right to rule us. WE actually are them, is the funniest thing ever. For it you go far enough back in time, we are each related to some of these original trees that underpin the beginnings of all humans as we know them today, regardless of the so called delineation of ethnicity accepted today.

There have been many wars. Some, probably instigated through great need that happens after major cataclysmic events, which we know have happened numerous times throughout history. People who are trying to survive after great trauma tend to regress to survival of the fittest mentality. Unfortunately, that tendency persisted, and has created a separate group of individuals, who through avarice, deceit, dark sorcery, and secrecy, have elevated themselves to an almost godlike position and deem themselves our rightful rulers. Very primitive and Darwinian in thought. They have been inflicting great harm without remorse for literally eons, keeping their memories and special status in tact, probably through many cataclysms, and have been exploiting their advantage for who really knows how long. I’ll come back to this train of thought, later, when I have more time, maybe.....
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