What a strange turn of events at the dinner table last night; guess I just need to spill this one out. My inner mirth has not subsided as I relate this story that carries with it a sense of the unbelievable, bizarre and truly psychotic behavior observed. The cartoon below was posted on a friends page on FB and while it made me chuckle I had zero intention of entering into or closing off from any conversation of the "matrixed".
It was a small gathering of family, my daughter and her husband have a beautiful four month old baby girl who was asleep in my daughter's arm as we all sat at a beautifully laid banquet table with some truly delicious food, I practice kitchen alchemy which is simply allowing the inner flow of enjoyment touch all the food I prepare, as my daughter had gratefully commented earlier when she said that whatever I touch turns to gold.
As the meal was consumed the conversation turned to spiders and people's phobias, we were evenly divided on those who cringe uncontrollably and those like myself that can capture a spider and release it. ---> insert some laughter and enjoyment here. I am not sure how the conversation segued into the "Princess" (more to come on that name) accusing me that if I knowingly released a Brown Recluse spider that I was morally corrupt because it could go kill my neighbor. I still wasn't tuned into where this was going so I tried to explain that it would never occur to me that a released spider would "go kill a neighbor" and that if someone was bit there would be no way of knowing if it was the spider I released or not ... included in my speaking was an expression of love for the natural world and my own lack of fear in that regards.
The Princess then turned on me with a focus she's never demonstrated before and asked me if a murder
was in my house if I would release him, a confusing question to begin with I again answered her as best I could; that no if I was dealing with a murder, who being a human of an unnatural psychosis I would have to deal with him. She raised her voice and said. "I don't believe you!" , "I think you would release him if he didn't pose any harm to yourself." Wow! this was now personal and accusative. To try and end this turn of events I said something like, "I've had to deal with some pretty evil people in my life so if she thought that it was her business."
She then went on to say something about not getting the flu shot because she never got the flu [insert the irony of that statement] which somehow led her to a rant about vaccines and pharmaceutical medications and their benefits, I was not sure what was happening here for she was obviously triggered and in defense mode when in fact I never questioned her and wasn't feeling anything but a sense of what the f*uck is going on here? How did we get from spiders to vaccines? She then turned to me point blank and said: "I suppose if you didn't vaccinate your child you wouldn't feel bad about putting her in school and endangering the other children." Silly me said something along the lines that I had spent over 30 years studying vaccines and firmly knew that they were detrimental." to which she snapped back that she had studied them too and... so on and so on. I knew that I was listening to a "screen of projection" the often repeated word for word lines of the liberally indoctrinated. I was perturbed by the violence of her argument directed at me so I stood up and said. "I lost a daughter to vaccines and know others who have too." It stopped her and I made my exit to the kitchen... everyone was upset, especially my daughter as she has no intention of vaccinating her new born child.
We all let it pass, I stepped outside to smoke a cigarette with a good friend who is in accord with what I tried to express to deaf ears. It struck me hard how well the web has been woven on this subject, it is a dividing line and I could see how it could tear families apart, that saddened me while at the same moment I was knew that the Princess's violent opinion needed to surface or the precious new life we were celebrating could become a dividing line. Fortunately no one wanted this "debate" to continue so we moved on to dessert and opening some gifts.
Here it grew darkly bizarre and I now firmly seated in observer watched the gift giving. My ten year old granddaughter wearing an Apple watch her father had given her as she excitedly opened an Echo Dot from the Princess... who then started talking about her interactions with Alexa and Siri. She was without censor (a few too many tequilas I think) as she waxed loving praise on her devices relating how she had taught Siri to call her "Princess __________". What was so strange was the dichotomy of her saying that she valued privacy above all and was aware that the devices tracked her every move but at the same time she was enchanted with them. What a messed up reality, it did however give me a taste of the "matrixed" that I have avoided contact with for many years now. I am going to have to meditate deeply on this as I know these types of contacts are going to happen more frequently.
By writing this there is a release and my first thoughts this morning were to absolve the conversation, the bite and sting of it, for there are spiders and then there are Spiders
, of course she knows nothing about the other spiders so clearly is she snared in their web. Now I am going to light some sage and say a mighty prayer for the unaware. Looking around inside I can't find any response more apt than to love deeper, for there is no offense for those who don't feel offended.
and fortunately my daughter will remove the Apple watch from their home, we had earlier spoken about how invasive these devices are and what a heavy electronic drug of addiction they promote, it was a serious discussion of how to support each other in limiting time on the screen.
Oh what a web we weave.