Visiting past me

[Blue Rising]

I followed a tug here this morning. It was an odd, kind of out of the blue, little pull. I read some of Christine's musings and some of Spiritwind's too many thoughts. It feels familiar. Warm. Like home, honestly. Then I ended up here. Looking into the magic mirror at past me.

You know what? I love past me from 10 years ago. I appreciate that version of me more than I can express. She was so open, a naive sponge ready to learn from every direction at once. And that's what happened, for sure. She was overwhelmed by the vastness of what she didn't know. And she was obnoxiously curious. She had a direction and tenacity and verve. She was also skeptical and afraid, and I understand that, too.

I have followed many roads in these 10 years. Twisty and turny, sometimes steep, several drops to hell, painfully beautiful. It was all there lol. I am no longer overwhelmed by the vastness of what I don't know. It just is.

I'm grateful to have found the spaces I needed, the teachers when I was ready, the lessons I needed to learn, the love and acceptance of kindred souls, and my own magic. It's different, isn't it, when everything has been processed and integrated?

<3

[Spiritwind]

Wow! It’s so great to log in and see your post! I’ve missed you and thought about you often. It has been quite the ride since we all met online all those years ago. I love that line “I am no longer overwhelmed by the vastness of what I don’t know. It just is.” I can seriously relate to that, as the more I peel back the veneer of what I thought I knew, and all that I have had to throw out, I realize just how vast what I don’t know is. And, I too am okay with that. I remind myself almost daily to embrace the unknown. Big virtual hugs coming your way!

[Christine]

Here is looking at you beautiful being! You have been missed. Keep shining in that magic mirror.

[Blue Rising]

My goodness, what a treat to hear from you both! Sending hugs right back!

Oh, Christine, look at us! Definitely some memories with that trip! The time I got locked into a sacred pyramid and got kicked out of a church among other things So much happened that year! That was a beautiful home you had. I think you must have created your dream by now and live in the mountains somewhere.

Yes, the vastness. I don't even research anything anymore. That is a trap in and of itself. I'm doing well if I light a candle and spend a few moments communing with the Sacred. 3D is a bitch, and it requires so much that I feel the sacred shrinking. I know damned good and well it is right where I left it, and in full force. But in this fucked up, difficult, complicated, divided world...

Anyway, I miss you both and the community that was full of connections. I think about you all the time, and of course some of our other kindred spirits. I hope you are happy and healthy. I hope your lives are full of much love.