Visiting past me

[Blue Rising]

I followed a tug here this morning. It was an odd, kind of out of the blue, little pull. I read some of Christine's musings and some of Spiritwind's too many thoughts. It feels familiar. Warm. Like home, honestly. Then I ended up here. Looking into the magic mirror at past me.

You know what? I love past me from 10 years ago. I appreciate that version of me more than I can express. She was so open, a naive sponge ready to learn from every direction at once. And that's what happened, for sure. She was overwhelmed by the vastness of what she didn't know. And she was obnoxiously curious. She had a direction and tenacity and verve. She was also skeptical and afraid, and I understand that, too.

I have followed many roads in these 10 years. Twisty and turny, sometimes steep, several drops to hell, painfully beautiful. It was all there lol. I am no longer overwhelmed by the vastness of what I don't know. It just is.

I'm grateful to have found the spaces I needed, the teachers when I was ready, the lessons I needed to learn, the love and acceptance of kindred souls, and my own magic. It's different, isn't it, when everything has been processed and integrated?

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