Hello, my lovely friends. I have a lot on my mind lately. I was thinking about sharing some. If you are one that shares this way, you may understand how it helps in processing.
I start my new job soon. In a couple of weeks actually. Working with middle school children in a public school. Ironic, since I dislike the system so much. It seems to be about the Angel who stands at/in/around/through/above/below/within the school *with* the children....rather than about the education. I will follow the nudge to do this, and get back into teaching. And I watch for negative thoughts and open the window in my mind for them to float out, lest they stay and germinate. I say Thank You every day for this.
The man I am dating is quite unique. The synchronicities that made me sit up and take notice...and the ones that keep me with him... more constant and powerful than any others I have experienced. So I am also going with that nudge rather than kicking and screaming that I'm not sure about this. He is a fellow Cancer. I've never dated a Cancer before. It's quite fun. Lol I say Thank You every day for this.
All three of my daughters are in jobs that I would have hand picked for them. Universe is awesome that way. K is a lab tech in an allergy clinic. She would be a great nurse, for now this is perfect. Got her back to work after her baby turned 2. Got her back into an independent position, one where she could take care of herself and children should the opportunity arise and she take it. A Goddess is hidden in there. I say Thank You every day for this.
M works with two year olds. She is so good at it that even I am amazed. Since having her own baby, she has had a change in not only her focus but her soul shifted. I can't explain it. Saved her life though. A Goddess has been awakened in her. I say Thank You every day for this.
Em is healing. She is an apprentice herbalist, I think a Second Year. She is going back to work today, just on a part time basis for a week or so. Then, back she goes. We hope. A Goddess lives openly in her. I say Thank You every day for this.
I have told my girls that the way to win at the game of life is to find a way to make a living and support yourself doing something that you are passionate about. And today, they are all three winning. All we have is now, so I sit in the gratitude of this moment.
I went over to PA today. Played kick the can by myself as I strolled through the abandoned village. Memories flooded back, vivid as if I were watching a movie on a big screen. I am grateful for that experience. I learned about energy there. I saw what happened when people came together with something in common...a common goal perhaps. I learned about a great many things. I learned about change, about the pendulum, and about the passage of time. About right and wrong, or the lack thereof. About how the alt community has the same authority or power structure as it stands against. I learned about people. I learned that there will be those who speak as authorities on just about everything, and really what they are doing is talking about their experiences. You can't actually teach anyone anything. You can't learn from anyone else, either. It is not foolish to sit quietly in a group and have a child's curiosity, to have a burning desire to hear everything and soak it in like a sponge, to follow those who appear to be successful in the ways you want to be successful. That is neither foolish, nor is it a waste of time. Not if that is the only way of learning available, not if there is no other way. But at some point... another way does present itself. In the very still, quiet, glow of Spirit inside, a music can be heard. A whispering. A yearning...a calling. What I learned is that once Spirit can be heard inside, well... then... Spirit replaced all others. That's the wise course anyway.
I stand without fear. (I tell myself-lol.) Gazing into the mirror and loving the Goddess I know I am. No conceit, just... knowing I Am. I Am holding to my Anchor today. There was a member at PA, went by Anchor, and one time when things got very hectic and a transition was upon me, I thought I would not be able to handle it. He gave me an Anchor. Energetically. Well, I have used that Anchor on many occasions, and still do from time to time. I went back and thanked him for it a while after he gave it to me, and he said that he had forgotten all about it. He never actually gave me anything. That was My Anchor all along.
I miss him lol. I do miss many of the friends I had. Thing is, I wouldn't trade you guys, and my Tribe in the physical, to go back to that. I really wouldn't. I'm as grateful that some fell away as I am that some entered my life. Blessings, all.
Here's to sharing the space of I Am. Here's to shaking off everything except this one moment. And being grateful for everything it offers.
Do not fashion me a maiden who needs saving from the dragons. I am the Dragon. And I will eat you whole.